Thats Scary

Becoming a parent brings on a whole new set of anxities. At least for me it does. I think about how I treat my body to make sure he is safe and protected in there. I think about everything that enters my body first. Whether food, drink, medicine, etc. Whereas before, it wasnt that much of a thought process for me. I have an overwhelming sense of obligation to keep my little one safe. I feel as though it is my responsbility to protect him since he is growing inside me.

My husband will be the first to tell you that I am a little over cautious with this. Sometimes I get paranoid over the dumbest things. Maybe its because this is my first baby. Maybe its just because I am becoming a mom. Whatever it is, it is something I have had to deal with during this pregnancy. There have been times I have just had to say, Karlee stop! Stop worrying, stop thinking about that, Brody will be fine. God is protecting him. It honestly makes me a nervous. If I am this worried with him in my womb, the safest place for him to be, how will I be when he is out of it??? I feel like I am the only pregnant person like but I hope I am not :)

This morning my mom sent this to me. It is really great!
"Trust me and dont be afraid. I want you to view trials as exercise designed to develop your trust muscles. You live in the midst of fierce spiritual battles, and fear is one of Satan's favorite weapons. When you start to feel afraid, confirm your trust in me. Speak outloud if circumstances permit. Resist the devil in my My Name and he will slink away from you. Refresh yourself in My hold Presence. Speak or sing Praises to Me and My face will shine radiantly upon you."

That is some good stuff!! I have learned through this all that I ultimately cannot control anything. I have done my best to protect Brody while I have carried Him, but God is the one who is in complete control. Me worrying does no good. When Brody gets here, I know I just have to trust God that He will protect him and guide him. I have learned how to give over control and trust. Although I am sure I will have to give over control to God many times because I want it back, I know it will be more freeing than having control. God gave me this little boy and this little boy is His from before he is even born! Therefore, since it is God's blessing for me to be his mommy, I trust in the Lord.

What are you trying to control today??